yeah!!! finally i can talk v like usual ady...hope after tis nth happen btw us le..i will appreciate our friendship de...today reali happy la...bcz after settle the prob v her, my tension totally lost...feel can fly right now...hahaha...actually today planning go to primary jz wan see band performance..who noe???once i reach there,its ended...how pek cek am i....sienz dao~~~bt its ok....at least i can meet tiok my senior and primary teachers there...woo hoo..today is really my day...im so happy now...God reali help me a lot...love u GOD!!!

haizz...i duno what to do anymore..i though we can act like usual after she back from taiwan...bt all out of my predict. i though we can talk, can chat, can joke and sometimes can share our story like with others friend..bt at the end,NTH!! i really don't want lost this friend la...i reali wan to recover our friendship, but i duno hw anymore...now, i just always tell God and share with God my story and problem. i believe that only God understand me and can help me..haven settle 1 prob, come another prob..i oso duno what he thinking la.keep control me...even my parents oso din control me till so tight...i know he oways worry bout me..but, i ady 19 years old..i can take care myself and i dun like ppl control me although he is my bf..ya..i sayang him...bt did i not allow he talk to girl...same to him...he cant allow me out and talk with boy..what the hack??? i can distinguish la which is bf which is friend..even im jz joking v my junior, he oso jealous..damn it...we jz togather 2 weeks only, relation oso haven stable yet..so, cant simply control each other la..i just to tell u here...dear, i know u care and worry me..bt i oso got my freedom..same to u...so, can u understand me?i don't like ppl control me..and...i tink u same too rite??dear.....i noe what im doin..ok?besides, sumtime im nt din care bout u..is i sumtime quite bz..sumtime, when i am working, i cant pick up ur fon...hope u understand..last time i in hospital de ting, jz forget it la k...i wont blame u too..bcz i noe tat time u quite bz..dear, hope u give us sometime to understand more each other k?i dun wan to have any arguement v u anymore..u dun worry bout me ok?love u.....><

after listen some cristian things from stella and her mom, im start interested on it..i hope i can be one of the jesus believer..but what to do, my parent are buddha, i need to follow them..what i can do is just read bible sentence through facebook and internet. sometimes, stella will tell me about jesus, what inside the bible..through this, i can understand more about christian. after believe jesus, i realise that there are still a lot things that i need to complete, improve myself. when i face the prob, always think about god, he will always beside me...ya..i believe it. when i think about him, my mind is so relax and know what to do next. reali want to thx stella..she introduce god for me and this change me a lot. i hope next time i will have my own bible and can always go to church and pray to the god. now, wat can i do is everynite pray to the god and see bible through fb and sometime through stella. haiz....i reali wan understand more about god....

last few days just back from alor setar...so happy can meet a lot of band friends there...start to miss them now..still duno when we can meet again..haiz...what the most thing make i happy is i can meet the person who oways encourage me cheer me up when i am sad...STELLA LEE!!although we oways jz contact through phone.. but i can feel that she reali is a good friend..once i face the prob, she told me to tell god..because only god can help me...ya..i start to believe god now..start from last nite, i will pray to god before im goin to slp..i hope god can hear it..
 lets back to alor setar trip, after arrive there,im goin to her house and take a short nap..after that goin to meet others friend...after lunch, we go to see band comp...sure support SAS BAND!! their show was excellent and i should say well done to them..hope my band can like them in the future...after watched the comp, we having our dinner at kfc..one of the kid there should be pround because there are a lot people from 5 differents band sang the birthday song for him..after that, stella left me at bus station because she having latin dance after this...reali feel sad la cant take pic v her..because i reali duno when we can meet again..mayb no more???i have no idea with it..haiz...after i hear chee choong bus on 9pm, i damn scare because i tot i need to wait my bus alone at bus station there...luckily got 1 good and man friend -lee zheng nam acc me there until i leave the bus station..and last, my 1 day alor setar trip was ended...hope next time still got chance go again la...reali wish can meet dem again...TT

diploma ended...
travel ended.....
the travel nt as wad im expected.....
a bit sad with it.....
suan le bah~~~
let it passed...
after back terengganu...i need forget evrything about here~~~
dun wan tink about it ady....
about friend....
i jz miss those who treat me good...
sorry friend...i wont come back le...
it will make me more suffer v it.....
got chance we meet again bah~~~~

damn it!!

最讨厌那些每次无端端跟我摆臭脸的人！！
妈的！！我有的罪到你吗？？？
每次无缘无故来摆臭脸给我看。。。。
有什么不爽就讲啦！！
每次要到考试你都会讲。。。
不想要我跟你们一起出去读书就讲。。
我会醒目的~~
我知道，我成绩差，不配跟你们一起读书，
如果就这样，干脆跟我讲啊！！
有点不想跟你们去了新加坡了。。
甘愿早点回家。。。
就忍多一个星期吧。。。
然后就可以忘掉在这里的回忆。。。
错！！！是根本就没有回忆！！！

今天跟了两位朋友去走OneUtama，
感觉当然爽啦。。。
可是，回家后心情就变到很差了。。
就是你啦。。
haiz。。。考试又要到了。。
很压力咯。。只希望考试快点过，
然后可以跟朋友去新加坡玩了。。
很期待咧。。。。
过后就回丁加奴了。。。
再也不会回来了。。。。
朋友，对不起。。。
我不可以在在这里了。。。
不想历史又重来。。
一次就够了。。。
我会想念你们的啦。。。。^^

haiz...她真的是我的好友吗？
如果是，为何要在后面刺我呢？
在后面一直跟人家说我的东西。。。
什么都不甘愿我，我做什么她也做什么。。。
每次都在利用我。。。
算了吧。。。就开只眼，关只眼吧~~
在这里的生活只剩下几个星期而以，
真的很想开开心心的过这几天的生活~~
过后，就不会回来了。。
明天又有presentation，有点怕咧。。
怕会还到整组的成绩。。。
保佑我明天可以顺顺的过关吧~~~~

woohoo~~finally i found the video that i want for 2 years ady..i believe swadaya and ex band members too bah....^^..
this is the video that we perform when we at shanghai..it is really a memorable video for us..it let i recall back the life when i joined swadaya...i love this band so much although i had left them 2 years ago..i did't regret before for joined it...

Swadaya!!I LOVE U!!!

this is our video..enjoy it..^^

http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/WpTmpS1cwp8/

~.~

生病都快要三天了。。。几时才可以好咧？？haiz。。。
明天又考试了。。。FINANCE & BEVERAGE!!
明天一起去跳楼吧！！
过了明天就轻松一下了。。。然后星期四回去KT。。。
sipek 爽！！！
时间快点到啦~~~~

怎样？？

昨晚和两位我很信任的朋友说心事后，
结果也爽了一些。。。。
至少没像以前酱，一有问题就在房里默默的哭。。。
现在已经没事了，可是又来多一件烦恼的事~~
当初，自己明明已经对自己说了，
过了这三个月我就没事了，
就可以离开这里，
再也不会再回来，也不会去想念他们。。。。
可是，昨天我既然会为了他们而哭，
还没毕业已经舍不得他们了。。。
其实，我很想听这两位朋友的话，
继续读degree，不要先去training，
可是我怕历史会重演，
我真的真的很怕，如果真的又发生，怎么办？？
现在我也不知道我要的是什么。。。。
一切顺起自然吧！！

担心~~

what i am doing??

midterm exam is around the corner, i still can relaxing and do wateva i want.,,,
tomoro food costing test, i am trying to study,but i cant make it!!i keep online and sleep..i duno how to answer the question tomoro!! every day after class, i tell myself i need to study..but what i am doing? feel bored to study and no mood with it..i keep delay it to tomoro,tomoro and tomoro...sometime, i damn angry with myself for not apreciate what my parents had giving to me..they send come to study,but i din't do it..i just keep playing and wasting their money!! i think they will very disapointed with my attitute..before this, my parents not allow i come here to study, but bacause of this issue, i keep argue with them..finally, they let me come..but, what i have i do?? dad,mom, i am very very feel sory to both of you...i am so sorry to make u all disapointed..please forgive me~~~

好累的一天~~

今天一大早就被housemate吵醒了，
然后就陪他们去练presentation的东西咯。。
昨晚，跟某人说好要去midvalley 的pc fair，（而且还是他先约我）
那里知道他今早send msg 跟我说不要去了，
是人的当然会生气啦，
我为了不想放飞机，就拒绝了其他朋友，
还好有一个朋友愿意陪我去。。
幸好结果也有去，我还买了一个滑鼠和karpersky anti virus，
由于买karpersky给妈妈，我就跟她交换东西，
等到kt的pcfair，我叫她买hard disk 给我。。。。。（希望真的买啦）。。。
回到家就5点多了，然后10点酱又出去了。。。。
去了mcd做功课，现在才回到家。。。
今天真的好忙啊!!!hahaxD

后悔..........

当初如果我知道会这样，我就不来这里了。。。
真的有点后悔为何当初没有听妈妈的话。。。
但，后悔也来不及了。。。。。。。。。。。
只好每次发生事情时，只对自己说。。。。。
没关系，忍多几个月就没事了。。。。
自己要加油！！

hi~

hi everyone, this is my 1st blog..请大家多多指教。。。。^^